to say my mind is overwhelmed is an understatement! it is the last semester of my college career and never in my life have i been more terrified nor more excited! i can't wait to get my degree yet i can definitely wait for the big bad world to chew me up and spit me out! aaaahhh! the great thing about my final semester is that i finally have the opportunity to make work that is truly for me and that i really feel passionate about doing without having to fulfill requirements of assignments. so this is a really good thing, right? yes...but no! now it's all on me and i have nothing to lean on but myself and my fear seems to almost be getting the best of me--i'm scared! i know it's a little ridiculous and even in my anxiety of this monumentous semester, the artist in me doesn't sit back; it seems to be drawing ideas from this situation and thinking about how to visually communicate that. how do i show people how i feel? most people know me as the lady who has everything together so i toss around the idea of letting people in to know--do i really want people to know?! no! but would it make me feel better to just let it go? maybe a visual sigh? maybe! we'll see! i might even change my mind and no one will ever know how i was feeling and i don't think that would bother me either.

thinking about this crossroad that i'm at reminds me of an artist that a fellow student got me interested in: sabrina ward harrison. one of her books, "spilling over" journals her struggles with growing up, her memories, and the people and events in her life. i really enjoyed the imagery and really feel like i can draw a lot of inspiration from her so she/her book will be a great resource. i'm also interested in the self-portrait work of nancy roberts who uses a similar photographic journalistic style and i will use her as another resource.